Toning Down~

Well, it's been 7 months we've been together..My fren told me to voice out here if I'm unhappy..Well that serves the purpose of blog rite?..I sometimes cannot stand it anymore~ Today it's my quarter of a century day~ But not celebrating..Why? He said 1st bday together only..No need so memorable wan..Okie lor,nvm..We were supposed to go to a restaurant but it's fully book til nx month..Why? Coz last minute reservation~ I hate it..N now, no money to celebrate..Why am i so unimportant? I accompanied him to all his family functions..But I jus wanna go back hometown n he's always too busy to go..I jus wanna be happy for once~When i voiced out my unhappiness, he said when I hurt his feelings, do I know? Ppl's things are always more important than my thing...Sigh~Y is my relationship always fail? Am I too demanding? I jus wanna be loved..I told myself once, i don mind if he's not rich, or not handsome..All i wan is for him to care bout me, to make me important in his life..Yet, I failed..I'm unimportant..~

Friends or Competitors or Foes?

Life havent been great lately..Think back of the past n so many things to ponder..Yea, i noe, the term of look forward, don look back to the past..But this memories, though it hurts, yet this is life...I noe I'm one sensitive person, n trying to change myself..N it's all this negativeness is killing me, gosh!!Cmon, not everyone wanna hear us whining everyday...N yet again, I'm losing "them"...I really do feel that..I'm not small gas or wut..it's the truth..

Sigh, one question, how can one become so cool n cold? Anyone? Tell me please, especially guys!!Hey, I'm concern bout everyone, not jus one..But y I'm treated with coldness?!? Sigh..

Rushing weekend...

A very hectic weekend for me I'll say...Went back to hometown on Friday after work, down to Penang on Sunday for Yinz wedding dinner, and back to KL by 11pm bus n reached at bout 3.10am..

I asked to leave early on Friday after work coz my colleague bought the wrong ticket for me..He got me the 6pm one instead of 630 n wrong company!! Initially I asked for Konsortium, but he got me Star Mart..But in the end, the mistake is acceptable coz Star Mart is damn comfy..Hehe..N turns out it's Wen's Dad's Company..

It's been 4 months since I last went back to Taiping..The moment I reached, ee n uncle fetched me to have dinner..RICE!!! Didnt had rice for 4days d..Keke..Hard to get cheap rice in KLCC.. -.-" Went shopping for food, clothes and high heels at Tesco n Taiping Central..Cheap~

On sunday, Chang Wey fetched me to from Taiping to Penang..Drop by at Queensbay before heading to Traders Hotel for the dinner..Manage to catch up with Eric n finally get to meet the mysterious, cheeky Calvin Foo..When he n Eric gets together, I think I better raise my white flag..I surrender..Cekap shooting..Kakkak..Nice to meet u btw, Calvin..So "looking forward" to the Malacca+ KL trip..Hehee...Seeing n meeting my old classmates, really bring back all those memories..Miss u all so much...Hope we can catch up soon again...

Reached KL at 310am..Was rushing back to go to work at 7am but my eyelids got swollen...I suspected the prawn but I had only one miserable prawn?!? Sigh, 3rd week at new job, already take MC..So scared my appraisal look bad..Nvm, work extra hard to compensate today..Hehe..

My frens all asked me, when's my turn to get married?!?Hello...Partner pun tarak..Keke..It's okie, when fate is there, it's there..God has the plans all laid out before me..I managed to graduate n got a job, I'm more than satisfied...God Bless..~

First Day at Work...

Today marks the first day at my job as an Engineer..As usual, every working adult will tell u, first day is darn boring..Hehe..Is really nth to do, jus read n sign lots of documents. Anyway, met my Design department colleagues and the entire company's colleagues..It's not really a lot of ppl..I can actually list out all their names..Hehe..My immediate superior is a Japanese and I have to learn Japanese soon to be able to communicate with him..Even the admin lady, Cassandra can speak Japanese fluently..Oh ya, she was one of the gal who interviewed me and I went to lunch with her today..Found out that she loves badminton as well...First day was a sleepy day for me..Hehe..Hope tomorrow will be better..

Jus For U, King :D

To my dearest friend Eric who always trust, have faith and believe...Pls keep on having all this attributes and please do not give up..

Life is Best for those who want to Live it,
Life is Difficult for those who want to Analyze it,
Life is worst for those who want to Criticize it,
Our Attitude Defines Life...

Enjoy Your Life,
Laugh so Hard That even Sorrow Smiles at You,
Live Life so Well That even Death Loves to see you Alive,
Fight so Hard That even Fate accepts its Defeat...
A beautiful life does not just happen. It is built daily by prayer, humilty, sacrifice and love. May that beautiful life be yours always. GOD Bless.

A poem from my confidante~Thanks a bunch..

Just believe.
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Love After Lost
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Waiting for the person,
Your conditions worsen,
Wishing badly for him,a
Outlook is kinda grim,
Not knowing when it'll end,
When you'll be more than friend,
Your heart aches to be whole,
Hand in hand on a stroll,
You feel your love wasted,
Lost the love you tasted,
You cry for him at night,
You want to hold him tight,
But you are all alone,
You just stare at the phone,
Wishing that he would call,
Saving you from your fall,
It feels so painful now,
Survive, you don't know how,
It is never easy,
Advice can sound cheesy,
Easier said than done,
When you feel he's the one,
But patience not ignored,
His love be your reward.
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- Eric Lee 2009 -
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Does Love Need a Reason

I jus came back from Malacca bout an hour ago..Went there for a badminton friendly match with my bunch of badminton Kakis...Yes, as expected, I performed poorly and we lost...Sorry, partner...Haha..I still think that it's a good experience and a better arrangement can be arranged...

I've been down this few days for lots of reason..I'm surprise no white hair growing from my head yet..Shud have a bunch of it by now..So many things to think about..Now I agreed that studying life, less things to think bout...I jus wanna share this email I received and it's really true...

Does Love Need a Reason?

Once a lady when having a conversation with her lover, asked:

Lady:Why do you like me? Why do you love me?

Man:I can t tell the reason, but I really like you.Lady:You can t even tell me the reason, how can you say you like me? How can you say you love me? Man:I really don’t know the reason, but I can prove that I love you. Lady:Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend’s boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you! Man:Ok..ok!!! Erm... because you are beautiful, because your voice is sweet, because you are caring, because you are loving, because you are thoughtful, because of your smile, because of your every movements. The lady felt very satisfied with the man’s answer.

Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident and went in comma. The Guy then placed a letter by her side, Here is the content: Darling, because of your sweet voice that I love you...Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you. Because of your care and concern that I like you. Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you. Because of your smile, because of your every movements that I love you.Now can you smile? Now can you move? No, therefore I cannot love you.

If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore. Does love need a reason? NO! Therefore, I still LOVE YOU...

'True love never dies for it is lust that fades away. Love bonds for a lifetime but lust just pushes away' Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.' Mature love says 'I need you because I love you.' 'Fate Determines Who Comes Into Our Lives, But Heart Determines Who Stays...

Most of the people are blessed with a partner for them to go thru life together..Yet, some are not that lucky..Well, I'll say get to noe someone really well before taking a step further into the relationship..

I'm still praying,hoping and believing but it is eating me up...I hope I won't go cuckoo soon.... :( So many things troubing me..I jus hope someone will listen to me...